bruised and how .....

with or without you ... with or without youu.. i cant liveee.... with or without youu.. 


epitomizes the thoughts in my head so true... letting go of myself yet again... yet again free-falling... feeling the rush of pain from the bruises, the love, the addiction... i smile throughtout the whole journey as I know that inspite of everything that I want, the indifference supercedes the want ... the ignorance paints a grim picture .. ugly, lonely & dark ... I am slowly coming to be in the presence of nothingness and though I would want to walk away from this all, I would not be able to ... The numbing silence of the night is the most dreaded hour when I am invariably consumed with my emotions and I cannot help but wonder how life could get so unfair ... how when everything looked to be falling in place suddenly fell apart ... how the tears go unnoticed every night.. how days on end it becomes difficult to put on a mask for people around to not let them see through the sort of mortal that I have come to be ... often drowning is the answer rather than floating around being helpless ... yet i am surviving .... hoping that someday i will start to live...