In no mood to blog quite frankly, yet i am compelled to ... with all the mish mash of thoughts in my head letting it out is the next best option !!! ... havent been myself lately, feels like everything around is moving in a sepia mode with a panoramic view and people are scouting at their own pace oblivious of my existence... in the past this would have made me feel good, a self-proclaimed loner but not this time ... not this moment... like the cold, damp weather my soul has started to sense the change... too afraid to accept it ... and yet it is happening !!! ...

Feels like a rage inside ... like a rebel i am trying to fight a battle within and no matter the outcome I grow to be stronger and weaker at the same time... Circumstances brings the strength and Emotions the weakness... i am soaking in the glory of both as i come to the understanding that as a person i must dwell in either sides to create a balance else i wouldn't justify to the being that i am ... my persona ...